Who Am I?

It is an interesting question, is it not? As I sit with this question, my mind bombards me with the answers it has come to identify with. "I am Alexis, I am a woman, I am a wife, mother, sister, daughter, friend, seeker, teacher, guide, writer. I am love, compassion, joy, sadness, grief, sweetness, confusion, anger, frustration, shadow, peace, thoughtful, funny, serious, fearful, trusting, critical, encouraging, and a thousand other emotions that arise in this state of Conscious Awareness. I am this body and it's many functions, this body that has been in the process of change since the moment this "I/Alexis" was birthed.When I am identified with this body as me, I experience myself, as sensation, as attachment to a myth, the myth of this body as me; this body that has experienced infancy, toddlerhood, early childhood, adolescence, early adulthood, middle age, and now an elder.

When I contemplate on all of the above what is evident is NONE of these are a constant, they all fluctuate, shift in intensity, and some actually disappear. My titles (wife, mother, etc.) come and go in regards to whom I'm relating to...when I am no longer in that presence am I still that? It relates more to a relationship than to what I AM, it again, is not a constant. When I experience a thought that "comes into" my mind and I take a flight of fancy into a thought form, again, am I that thought? As my once teacher, Ramesh Balsakar said, "we have thousands of thoughts a day, we only take "delivery" of a few." And my thoughts often create emotions, depending on whether these thoughts are pleasant of unpleasant, and these emotions often create sensations in this body; and the greater my coupling with these thoughts, emotions, and sensations will determine my sense of peace or suffering. Asking the question again, is that what I AM? This body has under gone change after change, and will continue to do so until its end.

I am the "witness" to all these changes, I am Aware of these thoughts, emotions, sensations, The only constant as I look back as far as I can remember is That Awareness, in which all things arise and fall and is ever present, and unchanging. WHO AM I? I AM Aware, Open and Conscious. As Ramesh said, "All there is is Consciousness."

I open and welcome all thoughts, feelings, sensations, body perceptions into Open Awareness, as a practice, and begin to experience more and more that field of Openness which holds and experiences my humanness but does not identify as that..

OM Shanti Shanti Shanit

Alexis Cunningham 3/5/2023